Throwing the Euphio into the river.

Today's class got everyone a little more involved in the conversation than usual it seemed. All over this questioning of the euphio. I personally said I would throw it into the river. My reason being is I don't see happiness achievable when I press a button. To me happiness is accomplishing everything I need to in a day and because of that rewarding myself by buying myself something with the money i've made, going to a show, or just using my free time to spend with friends. I can clearly remember my happiest day and it was when I took my last dose of chemo June 1st 2009. I went through chemo treatment therapies and surgeries for two years. That last dose meant I was going to finally start to heal. That experience was painful, hard, scary, and not very happy all the time. I would never give it up though. Its put me where I am now. I have an awesome internship and family I would never have without it and those things make me happy everyday. There is no point to just sitting there and being "happy" because you pressed a button. I know everyone's version of happiness is different but how can just BEING happy add up to anything? What is happiness if you're doing nothing. Its true if you know you could just get happiness then many people would just press that button again and again because they wouldn't feel the rest of life necessary to them. To me I guess in the end it all comes down to whether you want your life to mean something or you just want to sit there. What is there to appreciate if you just sit in the awe of happiness. Nothing. I'll take my bad days, weeks, months. In exchange for those rare and few awesome amazing days or moments. Its so worth it. I was given this life, I fought to keep it, and i'm going to run myself dry getting the most out of it as I can. Even if i'm not always happy, its real.